Saturday, December 28, 2002
not quite sure what to make of this blog thingie... how public should i make it? who would read it!?
when i read other blogs, it seems that the more they let us into their *private* thoughts, the more intriguing it is... because we're *connecting*. But... it makes you feel so exposed.... guess you can't have it all. in any case... all this rambling... must be that winter virus.
learning a lot of lessons... funny how you can feel like you havn't learned a thing at my age... ;) maybe one day i'll reveal the secret. been wrestling with God about some stuff... run away feelings and such. Woah. sometimes i wish i didn't have hormones! :P ok, TMI! In any case... He spoke these words to me...
Daughters of Jerusalem, i charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.
Song of Songs 2:7
to put it in plain English... just LET it take it's course! Don't think about it too much, don't force it, don't *dream* about it, don't run ahead of it... Hold your horses, Sistah!
who'd ever thought i'd get scolded through Song of Songs?!
...ok God, i get the message.
when i read other blogs, it seems that the more they let us into their *private* thoughts, the more intriguing it is... because we're *connecting*. But... it makes you feel so exposed.... guess you can't have it all. in any case... all this rambling... must be that winter virus.
learning a lot of lessons... funny how you can feel like you havn't learned a thing at my age... ;) maybe one day i'll reveal the secret. been wrestling with God about some stuff... run away feelings and such. Woah. sometimes i wish i didn't have hormones! :P ok, TMI! In any case... He spoke these words to me...
Daughters of Jerusalem, i charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.
Song of Songs 2:7
to put it in plain English... just LET it take it's course! Don't think about it too much, don't force it, don't *dream* about it, don't run ahead of it... Hold your horses, Sistah!
who'd ever thought i'd get scolded through Song of Songs?!
...ok God, i get the message.
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
Nothing's worse than being sick during Christmas... BLECH.
but maybe it was really a blessing in disguise! :) Woke up with a horrible sore throat yesterday morning, and had to run to the doctors to make sure it wasn't STREP, Eeeeeeks. :) Thank God for technology... lab results came back in 20 min, and it was just a friendly neighborhood winter virus visiting this warm body for a vacation. So off i went to endanger the rest of my family and friends at our Christmas gathering.
Christmas with family is always... Unpredictable. :) Good thing is we didn't have to do our traditional family Christmas play! Yippee! :) Instead, we sang Christmas songs on Karaoke, and watched the lil' kids chase each other. It's time we pass the batons to the Next Generation, i say! Funny thing... no matter how old i get, when i'm with my BIG family (anyone watched my Big Fat Greek Wedding lately? o__O), i still feel like that "frumpy" 12 year old girl... heh. go figure. I Have ISSUES!
watched 4 movies in 2 days! My Big Fat Greek Wedding, Minority Report, Lilo & Stitch, Spider Man.
Brain Freeze!! How much Entertainment can one person take?! SAVE ME!!!!! The movies are good... but it's like feasting on only Junk food for a whole day... you feel inevitably... Unfulfilled. Need some REAL connection time. Connection with people, connection with the REAL WORLD, connection with God, and just connecting with something... more solid... something that won't vaporize when the credits roll.
think i'm gonna give into my *cravings*... i'll be off connecting now.
but maybe it was really a blessing in disguise! :) Woke up with a horrible sore throat yesterday morning, and had to run to the doctors to make sure it wasn't STREP, Eeeeeeks. :) Thank God for technology... lab results came back in 20 min, and it was just a friendly neighborhood winter virus visiting this warm body for a vacation. So off i went to endanger the rest of my family and friends at our Christmas gathering.
Christmas with family is always... Unpredictable. :) Good thing is we didn't have to do our traditional family Christmas play! Yippee! :) Instead, we sang Christmas songs on Karaoke, and watched the lil' kids chase each other. It's time we pass the batons to the Next Generation, i say! Funny thing... no matter how old i get, when i'm with my BIG family (anyone watched my Big Fat Greek Wedding lately? o__O), i still feel like that "frumpy" 12 year old girl... heh. go figure. I Have ISSUES!
watched 4 movies in 2 days! My Big Fat Greek Wedding, Minority Report, Lilo & Stitch, Spider Man.
Brain Freeze!! How much Entertainment can one person take?! SAVE ME!!!!! The movies are good... but it's like feasting on only Junk food for a whole day... you feel inevitably... Unfulfilled. Need some REAL connection time. Connection with people, connection with the REAL WORLD, connection with God, and just connecting with something... more solid... something that won't vaporize when the credits roll.
think i'm gonna give into my *cravings*... i'll be off connecting now.
Thursday, December 19, 2002
Welcome to my First Ever Blog entry! Wow! O__O!
Rain, rain and MORE rain... never thought i'd be more soaked in California than i was in Portland! Yikes. it's ok... hopefully, i'll be in the cozy shelter of our MALL! Only 1 week left! ACK!
Last nite had a really nice prayer meeting. I have to be honest, sometimes, i don't really realize how cool it is to have Jesus around. :) it really does take some time to sit back and think about the impact of what He did...
Because of Jesus...
i can be honest with my hurts
i can talk to God, and He actually answers
i can *experience* God's comfort and peace
i can be ok with not *knowing* what's going on in the world
i can CHANGE!!
i can have a Father who will always be here for me
i can be FREE!!!! as a Bird!!!
yeh... :)
Merry Christmas, Everyone.
Rain, rain and MORE rain... never thought i'd be more soaked in California than i was in Portland! Yikes. it's ok... hopefully, i'll be in the cozy shelter of our MALL! Only 1 week left! ACK!
Last nite had a really nice prayer meeting. I have to be honest, sometimes, i don't really realize how cool it is to have Jesus around. :) it really does take some time to sit back and think about the impact of what He did...
Because of Jesus...
i can be honest with my hurts
i can talk to God, and He actually answers
i can *experience* God's comfort and peace
i can be ok with not *knowing* what's going on in the world
i can CHANGE!!
i can have a Father who will always be here for me
i can be FREE!!!! as a Bird!!!
yeh... :)
Merry Christmas, Everyone.
